I have been playing around with the Gealic word "uafasach". It is usually translated as terrible, horrible or awful. On closer examination it is also translated as awesome or wonderful. Looking at awful and awesome, awful is full of awe and awesome is something which inspires awe.
I'm reliably informed that "awe" is something which should be reserved for the experience induced by God's revelation. That is revelation in the sense that we experience God directly. (A Course in Miracles, Text - Chapter 1, The Meaning of Miracles, Section II, Revelation, Time and Miracles. Paragraph 3).
Those that have been following this blog are right to assume that I have been walking the beaches in Kerry again (See post of 22 APRIL 2010, Ego, Mind, Memory, Emotion). In that post I said "Sometime in the future on that beach in Kerry I may decide that there is yet another role for me."
It appears that fate and the universe have been conspiring to make that a self-fulfilling prophecy. Because, here we are now living in Glenbeigh, and really enjoying the role of grandparents.
Truly "uafasach"!
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07 February 2019
10 September 2014
Teacher Beware
In 1967 I studied the teachings of Sri Ramana Maharishi. His advice was to keep asking oneself the question "Who am I". This led me into a lot of soul searching. I persisted with this enquiry for thirty years, did a lot of research and discovered a lot about myself.
In 1997 I started studying A Course in Miracles. In the introduction to the Manual for Teachers book the question became "What am I". This question, and the teachings in A Course in Miracles, radically changed my perspective and made sense of what I had learned during my "Who am I" phase.
"To teach is to learn, so that the teacher and learner are the same. It (the course) also emphasizes that teaching is a constant process; it goes on every moment of the day, and continues into sleeping thoughts as well."
"To teach is to demonstrate. There are only two thought systems, and we demonstrate that we believe one or the other is true all the time. From our demonstration others learn, and so do we. The question is not whether we will teach, for in that there is no choice... we choose what we want to teach on the basis of what we want to learn...We cannot give to someone else, but only to ourself, and this we learn by teaching. Teaching is but a call to witnesses to attest to what we believe. It is a method of conversion. This is not done by words alone. Any situation must be to us a chance to teach others what we are, and what they are to us."
"The curriculum we set up is therefore determined exclusively by what we think we are, and what we believe the relationship of others is to us."
"It is our mission to become perfect here, and so we teach perfection over and over, in many, many ways, until we have learned it."
See more here.
One of the expressions that I queried a lot was "We'll always be learning." This is true if we believe that we are here living a separate experience. An exercise I teach in Peace of Mind Healing is to get us to stay in peace from when we wake up in the morning for as long as we can. When we realise that we are not in peace anymore ask ourselves "Why did I decide to take myself out of peace?" The day that we spend the whole day in peace is the day that we have stopped learning and realise that we are perfect.
We are always teaching. Beware what we teach!
In 1997 I started studying A Course in Miracles. In the introduction to the Manual for Teachers book the question became "What am I". This question, and the teachings in A Course in Miracles, radically changed my perspective and made sense of what I had learned during my "Who am I" phase.
"To teach is to learn, so that the teacher and learner are the same. It (the course) also emphasizes that teaching is a constant process; it goes on every moment of the day, and continues into sleeping thoughts as well."
"To teach is to demonstrate. There are only two thought systems, and we demonstrate that we believe one or the other is true all the time. From our demonstration others learn, and so do we. The question is not whether we will teach, for in that there is no choice... we choose what we want to teach on the basis of what we want to learn...We cannot give to someone else, but only to ourself, and this we learn by teaching. Teaching is but a call to witnesses to attest to what we believe. It is a method of conversion. This is not done by words alone. Any situation must be to us a chance to teach others what we are, and what they are to us."
"The curriculum we set up is therefore determined exclusively by what we think we are, and what we believe the relationship of others is to us."
"It is our mission to become perfect here, and so we teach perfection over and over, in many, many ways, until we have learned it."
See more here.
One of the expressions that I queried a lot was "We'll always be learning." This is true if we believe that we are here living a separate experience. An exercise I teach in Peace of Mind Healing is to get us to stay in peace from when we wake up in the morning for as long as we can. When we realise that we are not in peace anymore ask ourselves "Why did I decide to take myself out of peace?" The day that we spend the whole day in peace is the day that we have stopped learning and realise that we are perfect.
We are always teaching. Beware what we teach!
25 August 2013
Weeny wannabe themocrats
In his book, The Fire From Within, Carlos Castaneda talked about "small-fry petty tyrants". These are the people in your life who bully you or want to bully you. Their purpose is to keep you 'under their thumb'.
In my jargon these are referred to as weeny wannabe themocrats. I keep Themocrats for the Owners. Wannabe themocrats are all the politicians, religious leaders, presidents, etc who think they run the planet, but don't really. They all take their orders from the Owners.
So, weeny wannabe themocrats are the small-fry petty tyrants in our lives. These people want to control our lives, tell us what to do and what not to do. They want us to conform to their ideas rather than allowing us to develop and express our own. Unfortunately, these themocrats come in the form of our parents, our family and our friends.
Wilhelm Reich, in The Function of the Orgasm stated it as follows:
"The compulsive family and compulsive morality undermine family and morality. We are faced with the task of mastering the infirmities, in the form of psychic illnesses, caused by sexual and familial tyranny. To master the psychic plague, it is necessary to draw a clear-cut distinction between the natural love which exists between parents and children and every form of familial compulsion.
The endemic illness, familitis, destroys everything which honest humans are striving to achieve. We will never find lasting peace and we will seek in vain to fulfill the function of social organisation as long as untutored and naive politicians and tyrants of whatever persuasion continue to contaminate and to lead sexually sick masses of people.
The social organisation of man has the natural function of protecting work and the natural fulfillment of love. Knowledge, work and natural love are the sources of our life. They should also govern it, and the full responsibility should be borne by each of us individually.
Their natural expression blocked by forced asceticism and in part by the lack of fruitful activity, children develop a sticky attachment to the parents marked by helplessness and guilt feelings. This, in turn, thwarts their liberation from the childhood situation, with all its concomitant sexual anxieties and inhibitions. Children brought up in this way become character-neurotic adults who, in turn, pass on their neuroses to their own children. And so it goes from generation to generation."
A Course in Miracles, Chapter 5.VII has this to say about
"Guilt feelings are the preservers of time. They induce fears of retaliation or abandonment, and thus ensure that the future will be like the past. This is the ego's continuity. It gives the ego a false sense of security by believing that you cannot escape from it. But you can and must. God offers you the continuity of eternity in exchange. When you choose to make this exchange, you will simultaneously exchange guilt for joy, viciousness for love, and pain for peace. My role is only to unchain your will and set it free. Your ego cannot accept this freedom, and will oppose it at every possible moment and in every possible way. And as its maker, you recognize what it can do because you gave it the power to do it."
Wilhelm Reich, in The Function of the Orgasm stated it as follows:
"The compulsive family and compulsive morality undermine family and morality. We are faced with the task of mastering the infirmities, in the form of psychic illnesses, caused by sexual and familial tyranny. To master the psychic plague, it is necessary to draw a clear-cut distinction between the natural love which exists between parents and children and every form of familial compulsion.
The endemic illness, familitis, destroys everything which honest humans are striving to achieve. We will never find lasting peace and we will seek in vain to fulfill the function of social organisation as long as untutored and naive politicians and tyrants of whatever persuasion continue to contaminate and to lead sexually sick masses of people.
The social organisation of man has the natural function of protecting work and the natural fulfillment of love. Knowledge, work and natural love are the sources of our life. They should also govern it, and the full responsibility should be borne by each of us individually.
Their natural expression blocked by forced asceticism and in part by the lack of fruitful activity, children develop a sticky attachment to the parents marked by helplessness and guilt feelings. This, in turn, thwarts their liberation from the childhood situation, with all its concomitant sexual anxieties and inhibitions. Children brought up in this way become character-neurotic adults who, in turn, pass on their neuroses to their own children. And so it goes from generation to generation."
A Course in Miracles, Chapter 5.VII has this to say about
"Guilt feelings are the preservers of time. They induce fears of retaliation or abandonment, and thus ensure that the future will be like the past. This is the ego's continuity. It gives the ego a false sense of security by believing that you cannot escape from it. But you can and must. God offers you the continuity of eternity in exchange. When you choose to make this exchange, you will simultaneously exchange guilt for joy, viciousness for love, and pain for peace. My role is only to unchain your will and set it free. Your ego cannot accept this freedom, and will oppose it at every possible moment and in every possible way. And as its maker, you recognize what it can do because you gave it the power to do it."
10 July 2012
Creationright 3 July 2012 ex?Peace
The Law of Love - your gift from your creation
There is only one law and that is the law of love. Really love is all there is.
Love Yourself.
Use your neighbours as your witnesses to which law you buy into, the Law of Love or the laws of futility.
For those of you who want or like references, Luke 10.27; A Course In Miracles, lessons 67, 229, 267.
There is only one law and that is the law of love. Really love is all there is.
Love Yourself.
Use your neighbours as your witnesses to which law you buy into, the Law of Love or the laws of futility.
For those of you who want or like references, Luke 10.27; A Course In Miracles, lessons 67, 229, 267.
A Course in Miracles - our best buy ever 20 June 2012 ex?Peace
Back in 1996 when Dervish was Crystal Connection and was located on Paul Street we went in to do some Christmas shopping. Mary asked Jonathan for something light to read over our Christmas Holidays in Kerry. Jokingly, I think, Jonathan placed A Course In Miracles on the counter along with some other stuff we were buying. Without even looking at it Mary bought it. We brought it to Kerry and brought it home without even looking at it.
It had been recommended to me a few times but whenever I went to buy it the language in it put me off. Sometime in January my curiosity got the better of me and I decided to read the introduction. Needless to say I was fascinated. So I started reading the text, doing the lessons and reading the supplementary texts all at the same time.
I finished the 365 lessons in 375 days - that's dedication for you. And kept studying the text for a further 9 years. I then decided that I had enough. I dropped it, but not what I had learned from it. A couple of years later the word "meaningless" started popping into my head. "Ah ha" I said that's from A Course In Miracles. So I started doing the lessons again.
No stampede this time, I decided, just take them easy. Two and a half years later I'm up to lesson 325. This time around it made a lot more sense.
So after that long preamble we get to what struck me about lesson 325. It's the best explanation I've ever come across for what's going on in our minds and in the world. The following is extracted from the lesson.
"What I see reflects a process in my mind, which starts with my idea of what I want. From there, the mind makes up an image of the thing the mind desires, judges valuable, and therefore seeks to find. These images are then projected outward, looked upon, esteemed as real and guarded as one's own. From insane wishes comes an insane world. From judgment comes a world condemned. And from forgiving thoughts a gentle world comes forth...
Choose wisely!
It had been recommended to me a few times but whenever I went to buy it the language in it put me off. Sometime in January my curiosity got the better of me and I decided to read the introduction. Needless to say I was fascinated. So I started reading the text, doing the lessons and reading the supplementary texts all at the same time.
I finished the 365 lessons in 375 days - that's dedication for you. And kept studying the text for a further 9 years. I then decided that I had enough. I dropped it, but not what I had learned from it. A couple of years later the word "meaningless" started popping into my head. "Ah ha" I said that's from A Course In Miracles. So I started doing the lessons again.
No stampede this time, I decided, just take them easy. Two and a half years later I'm up to lesson 325. This time around it made a lot more sense.
So after that long preamble we get to what struck me about lesson 325. It's the best explanation I've ever come across for what's going on in our minds and in the world. The following is extracted from the lesson.
"What I see reflects a process in my mind, which starts with my idea of what I want. From there, the mind makes up an image of the thing the mind desires, judges valuable, and therefore seeks to find. These images are then projected outward, looked upon, esteemed as real and guarded as one's own. From insane wishes comes an insane world. From judgment comes a world condemned. And from forgiving thoughts a gentle world comes forth...
Choose wisely!
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Forgiveness Gifts 10 April 2012 ex?Peace
A Course In Miracles, Lesson 297 states "Forgiveness is the only gift I give." In one of my early posts I offered a blessing. This blessing contains the gifts of God - Love, Life, Light, Peace, Joy, Truth, Power, Strength, Free, Safe, Open, and Holy.
The gifts God gives are given to His Creation. I, the part of me, that believes I'm separate cannot offer these gifts because I see myself as separate from Creation. However, I don't have to offer them because God has already given them to everyone and everything.
What I can offer is forgiveness because that is a function of the separate part of me. I forgive the world and I forgive myself.
Forgiveness used to mean to me that I had to prostrate myself on front of another separate entity and beg them to forgive me for my transgressions. Or, I had to confess my sins to a priest and beg him to give me Atonement. This usually meant doing penance that involved pain and suffering.
Atonement means becoming one with God's Creation. Now all I have to do to forgive is to see everyone and everything as one with me. When I judge I enforce my belief in separation. When I see the world as evil I am damming myself to remain outside Creation.
Damming and damning are pronounced the same way, and funnily enough convey a similar outcome. Build a dam and block the flow of water, damn and block the flow of Love.
Tom Jones used to sing a song "Please forgive me, let me go..." And that's all forgiveness means - let all our judgments of each other go. Forgive and forget - if we really have forgiven we have forgotten.
The part of us that believes we are separate is really an illusion which will disappear like a puff of smoke when we accept that we are as God created us.
Heaven is here, there is no other place.
Heaven is now, there is no other time.
Welcome to Heaven, welcome home.
The gifts God gives are given to His Creation. I, the part of me, that believes I'm separate cannot offer these gifts because I see myself as separate from Creation. However, I don't have to offer them because God has already given them to everyone and everything.
What I can offer is forgiveness because that is a function of the separate part of me. I forgive the world and I forgive myself.
Forgiveness used to mean to me that I had to prostrate myself on front of another separate entity and beg them to forgive me for my transgressions. Or, I had to confess my sins to a priest and beg him to give me Atonement. This usually meant doing penance that involved pain and suffering.
Atonement means becoming one with God's Creation. Now all I have to do to forgive is to see everyone and everything as one with me. When I judge I enforce my belief in separation. When I see the world as evil I am damming myself to remain outside Creation.
Damming and damning are pronounced the same way, and funnily enough convey a similar outcome. Build a dam and block the flow of water, damn and block the flow of Love.
Tom Jones used to sing a song "Please forgive me, let me go..." And that's all forgiveness means - let all our judgments of each other go. Forgive and forget - if we really have forgiven we have forgotten.
The part of us that believes we are separate is really an illusion which will disappear like a puff of smoke when we accept that we are as God created us.
Heaven is here, there is no other place.
Heaven is now, there is no other time.
Welcome to Heaven, welcome home.
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Thought Reversal Psychology 5 September 2011 exLJ
What do I want to say? I'm not sure. Something about the idea that we all believe we are bodies.
Writing nothing these days. Everytime I sit down at the computer with the idea of writing some of the thoughts running through my mind, I freeze. Today, I'm going to persist. Even, if, I have to sit here all day and type one word a minute. The subject of this post has been buzzing me for the last few days. One way for me to begin is asking myself what is the meaning of those words and take it from there.
A thought is what I think. Is the thought mine? No matter what I think someone else has thought about it before me. Any idea, even crazy ones, that I think is original, comes up with many pages when I search the Internet. There's nothing original. It's all been done before. It will all be done again, over and over.
If I reverse this thought and accept that everything is known and that there is no such thing as original then all I am left with is the experience of being. And that leads to question the experience of being what?
Psychology is the study of the mind.
So, I focus on the experience of being mind. A major tenet of my education was that my mind is in my brain, in my body. And for me to perceive anything or be aware of anything it had to come through the senses of my body. I had to keep my eyes and ears open and my mouth shut.
There were many minor experiences that began to make me wonder. Simple things like thinking about someone and then meeting them without having planned it. Seeing people in my mind the way they wanted to be seen rarther than the way they looked.
The major thought reversal came when I studied A Course In Miracles and A.H. Almaas's "Pearl Beyond Price". A Course In Miracles explained that I am not a body, I'm mind, because mind is all there is. "Pearl Beyond Price" explained how I got myself into the belief that I am a body by convincing myself that I am an image or a collection of images.
When I studied Indian Philosophy one of the concepts that I found almost impossible to grasp was that it is all an illusion. Because I believed the evidence of my senses I found it difficult to accept that there was really nothing there.
Now I know that there is something there and the illusion is in the way I interpret it. When I see images and objects I am seeing with my eyes and brain and mainly projecting what I want to see onto what is there. Even when I close my eyes I'm seeing with the pineal gland and my brain is interpreting.
Beyond my eyes, my pineal gland, my brain and my body there is mind. And it is always my mind that is really doing the seeing. It is always my mind that is thinking. What I think about I see. If I think an objective world, I see images and objects. If I think subjectively I may still see images and objects, but I can also go beyond these and achieve an in-mind experience (many people refer to this as out-of-body).
So, Thought Reversal Psychology?
World view: object + eyes + brain = reality
Beyond view: mind = reality
Ultimate view: reality = heaven
Our minds create our reality. Reverse our thinking and there is no sickness, no suffering, no death. We are not bodies. We are free.
PS. Six hours later, I was tempted to edit the first few paragraphs out of this. I decided to leave them there to remind me that I can overcome my reluctance to type and just let myself let it happen.
Writing nothing these days. Everytime I sit down at the computer with the idea of writing some of the thoughts running through my mind, I freeze. Today, I'm going to persist. Even, if, I have to sit here all day and type one word a minute. The subject of this post has been buzzing me for the last few days. One way for me to begin is asking myself what is the meaning of those words and take it from there.
A thought is what I think. Is the thought mine? No matter what I think someone else has thought about it before me. Any idea, even crazy ones, that I think is original, comes up with many pages when I search the Internet. There's nothing original. It's all been done before. It will all be done again, over and over.
If I reverse this thought and accept that everything is known and that there is no such thing as original then all I am left with is the experience of being. And that leads to question the experience of being what?
Psychology is the study of the mind.
So, I focus on the experience of being mind. A major tenet of my education was that my mind is in my brain, in my body. And for me to perceive anything or be aware of anything it had to come through the senses of my body. I had to keep my eyes and ears open and my mouth shut.
There were many minor experiences that began to make me wonder. Simple things like thinking about someone and then meeting them without having planned it. Seeing people in my mind the way they wanted to be seen rarther than the way they looked.
The major thought reversal came when I studied A Course In Miracles and A.H. Almaas's "Pearl Beyond Price". A Course In Miracles explained that I am not a body, I'm mind, because mind is all there is. "Pearl Beyond Price" explained how I got myself into the belief that I am a body by convincing myself that I am an image or a collection of images.
When I studied Indian Philosophy one of the concepts that I found almost impossible to grasp was that it is all an illusion. Because I believed the evidence of my senses I found it difficult to accept that there was really nothing there.
Now I know that there is something there and the illusion is in the way I interpret it. When I see images and objects I am seeing with my eyes and brain and mainly projecting what I want to see onto what is there. Even when I close my eyes I'm seeing with the pineal gland and my brain is interpreting.
Beyond my eyes, my pineal gland, my brain and my body there is mind. And it is always my mind that is really doing the seeing. It is always my mind that is thinking. What I think about I see. If I think an objective world, I see images and objects. If I think subjectively I may still see images and objects, but I can also go beyond these and achieve an in-mind experience (many people refer to this as out-of-body).
So, Thought Reversal Psychology?
World view: object + eyes + brain = reality
Beyond view: mind = reality
Ultimate view: reality = heaven
Our minds create our reality. Reverse our thinking and there is no sickness, no suffering, no death. We are not bodies. We are free.
PS. Six hours later, I was tempted to edit the first few paragraphs out of this. I decided to leave them there to remind me that I can overcome my reluctance to type and just let myself let it happen.
Sadness Sounds 5 August 2011 exLJ
On Wednesday night I posted two very sad songs to Facebook. Sean Curran asked the question. "What's up with all the sadness?" My response was "Just something I get into every so often when I need to remind myself where I am." That was the quick response. I have been thinking about it a bit.
Then Tantra Maat posted the Choir of the Crickets that slowed down cricket sound and made it sound like a human choir. I said this to "Zarkia" and she told me about a slowed down version of the theme from Jurassic Park.
So what is it with certain sounds and our emotions? Sound directly affects our heart. The Institute of Noetic Science and Heart Math have shown that there is a brain in our heart that is directly connected to the brain in our heads. And under certain conditions the heart-brain overrides the head-brain.
And then I started to read A Course in Miracles, Lesson 182. "I will be still an instant and go home.
"This world you seem to live in is not home to you. And somewhere in your mind you know that this is true. A memory of home keeps haunting you... a persistent feeling, sometimes not more than a tiny throb, at other times hardly remembered, actively dismissed, but surely to return to mind again...
...some try to put by their suffering in games they play to occupy their time, and keep their sadness from them. Others will deny that they are sad, and do not recognize their tears at all. Still others will maintain that what we speak of is illusion, not to be considered more than but a dream. Yet who, in simple honesty, without defensiveness and self-deception, would deny he understands the words we speak?"
It goes on to speak about a Child within my mind. A Child that knows what home is, not my family home or the place I was born, but Heaven.
I realise now that the sadness comes from this feeling deep in my mind of missing Heaven, of missing the innocence of the Child by striving so hard to be a "man of the world".
And all I have to do to recover my peace is to be still an instant.
In fact, many instants throughout the day.
Then Tantra Maat posted the Choir of the Crickets that slowed down cricket sound and made it sound like a human choir. I said this to "Zarkia" and she told me about a slowed down version of the theme from Jurassic Park.
So what is it with certain sounds and our emotions? Sound directly affects our heart. The Institute of Noetic Science and Heart Math have shown that there is a brain in our heart that is directly connected to the brain in our heads. And under certain conditions the heart-brain overrides the head-brain.
And then I started to read A Course in Miracles, Lesson 182. "I will be still an instant and go home.
"This world you seem to live in is not home to you. And somewhere in your mind you know that this is true. A memory of home keeps haunting you... a persistent feeling, sometimes not more than a tiny throb, at other times hardly remembered, actively dismissed, but surely to return to mind again...
...some try to put by their suffering in games they play to occupy their time, and keep their sadness from them. Others will deny that they are sad, and do not recognize their tears at all. Still others will maintain that what we speak of is illusion, not to be considered more than but a dream. Yet who, in simple honesty, without defensiveness and self-deception, would deny he understands the words we speak?"
It goes on to speak about a Child within my mind. A Child that knows what home is, not my family home or the place I was born, but Heaven.
I realise now that the sadness comes from this feeling deep in my mind of missing Heaven, of missing the innocence of the Child by striving so hard to be a "man of the world".
And all I have to do to recover my peace is to be still an instant.
In fact, many instants throughout the day.
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09 July 2012
Conflict - End Rant 16 January 2011 exLJ
A Course in Miracles, Lesson 102 talks about our belief in pain and suffering in the following terms: "It has not gone as yet, but lacks the roots that once secured it tightly to the dark and hidden secret places of your mind."
In teaching Peace of Mind Healing I emphasise that all pain and suffering comes from our thinking and that what we need to do is change our thinking. The most common response to this is "that's easier said than done". And I usually reply "don't I know?"
I don't know whether its the dreams, doing the lessons again or just simply life, but I still find myself in conflict with a lot of the stuff going on in the world. Despite my attempts to not be inundated with news (I don't watch news on TV or Internet, and I don't read newspapers) I still get to hear about some of the tragedies from friends or casual conversations.
Most of the time I'm superficially at peace and happy, but there is that underlying something always there. In psychiatric terms, it would probably be referred to as a compartment, some "dark and hidden secret place in my mind". Buried deep in my mind! How it got there, I'd like to say, I don't know, but I do. I absorbed it during my early childhood and then emphasised it again and again in all the arguments we had over the years. And that is argument in the sense of conflict not in the sense of clarification.
When I got old enough to be able to look somewhat objectively at all the arguments I could see what they are based on:
The strategy to end rant is "I am right, you are right, we are all right."
In teaching Peace of Mind Healing I emphasise that all pain and suffering comes from our thinking and that what we need to do is change our thinking. The most common response to this is "that's easier said than done". And I usually reply "don't I know?"
I don't know whether its the dreams, doing the lessons again or just simply life, but I still find myself in conflict with a lot of the stuff going on in the world. Despite my attempts to not be inundated with news (I don't watch news on TV or Internet, and I don't read newspapers) I still get to hear about some of the tragedies from friends or casual conversations.
Most of the time I'm superficially at peace and happy, but there is that underlying something always there. In psychiatric terms, it would probably be referred to as a compartment, some "dark and hidden secret place in my mind". Buried deep in my mind! How it got there, I'd like to say, I don't know, but I do. I absorbed it during my early childhood and then emphasised it again and again in all the arguments we had over the years. And that is argument in the sense of conflict not in the sense of clarification.
When I got old enough to be able to look somewhat objectively at all the arguments I could see what they are based on:
- I am right, you are wrong.
- If I am wrong, I cannot admit it.
- If you don't agree with me that I am right, even though we both know I am wrong, then I get angry.
- When I get angry, I puff out my chest, try to get higher than you and get ready to head-butt you.
- You usually back down and I'm left with the guilty feeling that I should not have done that.
The strategy to end rant is "I am right, you are right, we are all right."
08 July 2012
Hold it Against Me 30 September 2010 ex?Peace!
"...would you hold it against me?"
My recent lessons in ACIM have been to do with grievances. Simply summary - holding grievances keeps me out of heaven. So, I'm letting them go. I'm also getting much quicker at catching myself getting into them. For every grievance there is a blame game guilt trip process. The lesson title is "Love holds no grievances."
My recent lessons in ACIM have been to do with grievances. Simply summary - holding grievances keeps me out of heaven. So, I'm letting them go. I'm also getting much quicker at catching myself getting into them. For every grievance there is a blame game guilt trip process. The lesson title is "Love holds no grievances."
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