17 July 2016

Twenty Years

1996 was a very pivotal year for me. I attended a week long video presentation of Drunvalo Melchizedek's Flower of Life workshop. This put together a lot of stuff I had come across previously and introduced me to quite a lot of new material.

He introduced a very different view of history based primarily on the writings of Zecharia Sitchin. He also talked about A.H. Almaas's explanation of how we get drafted into ego-land during our early childhood. I found Almaas's book "The Pearl Beyond Price" fascinating,

During that week there was some discussion about a work that was to become the major influence in my life: "A Course in Miracles".

Since then I have read the Textbook and Manual for Teachers numerous times and done the Workbook lessons twice. Yes, I am stubborn, and it takes a long time to undo my attachment to ego-land and all its illusions. Now I cycle through Lessons 221 to 365 on a continuous basis to keep me reminded of who and what I truly am and where and when I really live.

A Course in Miracles emphasises again and again that I am as God created me and as such I have no need to be concerned about this world, or the ego's interpretation of what it thinks is going on. Ego-land is hell. Based on fear, guilt and anger, we'll stay stuck in it until we change our thinking.

There is a 'world beyond' this world that we can enter. To do this, we start looking at this world through Love and Peace. Beyond ego's insistence that we are all guilty, we are all, in fact, perfectly innocent. As God's creation, how could we be otherwise?


10 September 2014

Teacher Beware

In 1967 I studied the teachings of Sri Ramana Maharishi. His advice was to keep asking oneself the question "Who am I". This led me into a lot of soul searching. I persisted with this enquiry for thirty years, did a lot of research and discovered a lot about myself.

In 1997 I started studying A Course in Miracles. In the introduction to the Manual for Teachers book the question became "What am I". This question, and the teachings in A Course in Miracles, radically changed my perspective and made sense of what I had learned during my "Who am I" phase.

"To teach is to learn, so that the teacher and learner are the same. It (the course) also emphasizes that teaching is a constant process; it goes on every moment of the day, and continues into sleeping thoughts as well."

"To teach is to demonstrate. There are only two thought systems, and we demonstrate that we believe one or the other is true all the time. From our demonstration others learn, and so do we. The question is not whether we will teach, for in that there is no choice... we choose what we want to teach on the basis of what we want to learn...We cannot give to someone else, but only to ourself, and this we learn by teaching. Teaching is but a call to witnesses to attest to what we believe. It is a method of conversion. This is not done by words alone. Any situation must be to us a chance to teach others what we are, and what they are to us."

"The curriculum we set up is therefore determined exclusively by what we think we are, and what we believe the relationship of others is to us."

"It is our mission to become perfect here, and so we teach perfection over and over, in many, many ways, until we have learned it."

See more here.

One of the expressions that I queried a lot was "We'll always be learning." This is true if we believe that we are here living a separate experience. An exercise I teach in Peace of Mind Healing is to get us to stay in peace from when we wake up in the morning for as long as we can. When we realise that we are not in peace anymore ask ourselves "Why did I decide to take myself out of peace?" The day that we spend the whole day in peace is the day that we have stopped learning and realise that we are perfect.

We are always teaching. Beware what we teach!

09 September 2014

Food, Glorious Food

There is much written about food, of its effects on us both positive and negative. Over the years I have experimented with various diets and followed a lot of nutritional advice. Currently, I eat what I like and drink lots of water. What I have found is that sugar based foods and drinks seriously effect me. When teaching Peace of Mind Healing I do a short session on "Food, Glorious Food". We examine how food effects us by thinking about a food and then scanning the body to see what changes have occurred. My emphasis is always that it is not the food that is the problem but what we think about it.

New Testament, Matthew 15.11-12

It's not what goes into our mouths that does us harm, it's what comes out of them. For what goes into the mouth passes into the stomach, and hence into the drain. But what comes out of the mouth proceeds from the heart, and thus harms us.

In Chinese Philosophy the Heart houses the mind. This is reinforced by studies published by the Institute of Heart Math. See http://www.heartmath.org/templates/ihm/articles/infographic/2013/mysteries-of-the-heart/index.php

A Course in Miracles, Workbook, Lesson 136, Sickness is a defense against the truth

18. Perhaps you do not realize that this removes the limits you had placed upon the body by the purposes you gave to it. 2 As these are laid aside, the strength the body has will always be enough to serve all truly useful purposes. 3 The body's health is fully guaranteed, because it is not limited by time, by weather or fatigue, by food and drink, or any laws you made it serve before. 4 You need do nothing now to make it well, for sickness has become impossible.

A Course in Miracles, Workbook, Lesson 222, God is with me. I live and move in Him.

God is with me. 2 He is my Source of life, the life within, the air I breathe, the food by which I am sustained, the water which renews and cleanses me. 3 He is my home, wherein I live and move; the Spirit which directs my actions, offers me Its Thoughts, and guarantees my safety from all pain. 4 He covers me with kindness and with care, and holds in love the Son He shines upon, who also shines on Him. 5 How still is he who knows the truth of what He speaks today!

01 March 2014

David Narby - Chapter 11: Warring Factions

"Let's get something straight." Said Amisa.

Clivid jumped up and going to the art supply cupboard rooted around for something.

"Ah!" he said as he walked over and presented a t-square to Amisa, "Is this straight enough for you?"

We all laughed and Will said, "What an excellent lesson in interpretation, Clivid."

"Seriously," Amisa said, "Let's get something straight, we are all wrong."

Clivid said, "I suppose you could lock us all up if we were not already incarcerated here."

Amisa continued, "I did not mean wrong in the sense that we need to be punished. I meant it in the sense that we need to correct our thinking, that we need to change our perspective. We are looking at everything from an 'ego' perspective."

Will smiled and said, "Since we are sitting here believing that we are all in different bodies what other perspective could we adopt?"

Amisa said, "The ego thrives on conflict. Warring factions attacking each other. Science versus religion. Within science, physicists versus psychologists. Within religion, Catholics versus Protestants. Within politics, right wing versus left wing, government versus opposition, east versus west. No matter what arena you enter it's all about conflict: family, society, sport, politics, media, business..."

Will interrupted, "And we could go on and on naming them."

Amisa said, "And all based on the simple idea that we are all separate. That we must strive for our autonomy and fight for our independence from each other."

Smigs said, "Looking back, the history of the world has always been about conflict, and looking at current policies and trends it's not going to change anytime soon.

Amisa said, "That's one of the ego's favourite ploys. It convinces us that the future will be identical to the past. simply because it looks at everything with a past perspective. It is never in the present and does not want us to become present."

I asked, "Why does it not want us in the present?"

Amisa replied, "Very simply, it does not and can not exist in the present. When we become truly present it disappears."

Darukin said, "Our fear is that if we let the ego go we will be out of our minds crazy, since for the most part the ego is what we have experienced."

Will said, "Yet, while David was describing his in-mind experiences we were all nodding knowingly, like we had experienced something similar."

Darukin said, "That's true, but we are not willing to discuss them with anyone, particularly, not in here."

Amisa said, "So, we all accept that we've had experiences that are beyond our ego and even beyond this world."

Everyone nodded agreement. I was wondering where do we go from here. We all sat in silence. I looked around and realised that I did not really know any of these people. I knew part of their stories, but what I thought I knew about them was based mainly on my own projections. I said,

"We're not really seeing each other. We're all crazy. We think the images we have of each other are real, when they are only ego projections. How do we end this insanity?"

Everyone clapped and congratulated me and said things like 'Well done!', 'Welcome Home!'. I was a bit embarrassed, unable to see what all the jubilation was about. Will said,

"See, David, you've accepted that we are all insane, not just those of us locked up in asylums."

Amisa said, "Within our minds there is a spark of radiant light, that is overshadowed by the ego. As far as the ego is concerned it cannot be. We, as egos, are convinced of this and so we never see the light. Yet, when we sit still, close our eyes and quieten our minds, we see it. It is always there, always was, and always will be, forever."

I asked, "What about the world we see with our eyes open, so convincing it is impossible to see it as an illusion?"

Amisa said, "Simple, David, just look for the light in everyone and everything."

25 August 2013

Weeny wannabe themocrats

In his book, The Fire From Within, Carlos Castaneda talked about "small-fry petty tyrants". These are the people in your life who bully you or want to bully you. Their purpose is to keep you 'under their thumb'.

In my jargon these are referred to as weeny wannabe themocrats. I keep Themocrats for the Owners. Wannabe themocrats are all the politicians, religious leaders, presidents, etc who think they run the planet, but don't really. They all take their orders from the Owners.

So, weeny wannabe themocrats are the small-fry petty tyrants in our lives. These people want to control our lives, tell us what to do and what not to do. They want us to conform to their ideas rather than allowing us to develop and express our own. Unfortunately, these themocrats come in the form of our parents, our family and our friends.

Wilhelm Reich, in The Function of the Orgasm stated it as follows:

"The compulsive family and compulsive morality undermine family and morality. We are faced with the task of mastering the infirmities, in the form of psychic illnesses, caused by sexual and familial tyranny. To master the psychic plague, it is necessary to draw a clear-cut distinction between the natural love which exists between parents and children and every form of familial compulsion.

The endemic illness, familitis, destroys everything which honest humans are striving to achieve. We will never find lasting peace and we will seek in vain to fulfill the function of social organisation as long as untutored and naive politicians and tyrants of whatever persuasion continue to contaminate and to lead sexually sick masses of people.

The social organisation of man has the natural function of protecting work and the natural fulfillment of love. Knowledge, work and natural love are the sources of our life. They should also govern it, and the full responsibility should be borne by each of us individually.

Their natural expression blocked by forced asceticism and in part by the lack of fruitful activity, children develop a sticky attachment to the parents marked by helplessness and guilt feelings. This, in turn, thwarts their liberation from the childhood situation, with all its concomitant sexual anxieties and inhibitions. Children brought up in this way become character-neurotic adults who, in turn, pass on their neuroses to their own children. And so it goes from generation to generation."

A Course in Miracles, Chapter 5.VII has this to say about

"Guilt feelings are the preservers of time. They induce fears of retaliation or abandonment, and thus ensure that the future will be like the past. This is the ego's continuity. It gives the ego a false sense of security by believing that you cannot escape from it. But you can and must. God offers you the continuity of eternity in exchange. When you choose to make this exchange, you will simultaneously exchange guilt for joy, viciousness for love, and pain for peace. My role is only to unchain your will and set it free. Your ego cannot accept this freedom, and will oppose it at every possible moment and in every possible way. And as its maker, you recognize what it can do because you gave it the power to do it."

23 August 2013

Themocracy or Eternal Oneness

I sometimes use the expressions "They" and "Them". I used to be asked who I meant when I referred to Them. Having thought about it over the years I concluded that I did not really know any of Them in particular but knew them as a 'class' of people.

"Them" are the Owners. I use a capital "O" to differentiate Them from the many of us that own many small things. Owners believe they Own the planet and everything and every one in it, on it and around it.

"Us" and "Them" has a long, a very long history. In his book "The Twelfth Planet" Zecharia Sitchin says that the Nefilim observed, what he refers to as, Homo Erectus. According to his calendar this was around 434,000 years ago. The following is his translation from the "Epic of Gilgamesh" which refers to an encounter between a Nefilim hunter and a Homo Erectus.

"the 'savage', this barbarous fellow from the depths of the steppe...
He filled the pit that I had dug,
he tore up my traps which I had set;
the beasts and creatures of the steppe
he has made slip through my hands."

When I first read this I thought that it inspired Edgar Rice Burroughs' novel Tarzan of the Apes (1912), except that he took the conflict into modern times. James Cameron's movie Avatar took the idea to a whole new level.

We like to think that democracy means that "we, the people" have some say in what's going on in our church, our society, our state, or, even our world; that if enough of us agree on some action then that action will be taken; and that our public opinion can make Them do what we want Them to do.

Sorry, this is a Themocracy, and we will do what we are told to do, and have been programmed via state and corporate propaganda to believe that we should do, even if it is reluctantly. And if at first They do not succeed they will reinvent it, re-wrap it, spin and re-spin it until They do get it right.

Reading, watching and listening to independent experts it seriously looks like the world is "going down the tube" and that we, our children and future generations are doomed to eternal slavery.


Looking at what's going on from the perspective of what we really are, we see the world as a wholly neutral thing, a place where we can learn our lessons and realise that we are all One. And that includes Them.

My body is a wholly neutral thing.
I am not a body, I am free.
For I am still as God created me.

I am the Holy Son of God Himself

God is my Father. And He loves His Son.
God is my Father. And His Son loves Him.

Your peace is with me, Father. I am safe.

And, so, ends Themocracy and Eternal Oneness begins.

06 August 2013

David Narby - Chapter 10 - Special Effects, Distractions, Diversions, Delusions

Annorr said, "Before we begin, I would like to inform you all that I've changed my name to Amisa, pronounced am-ee-sa. I'll still respond to Annorr, but I would prefer if you all called me Amisa."

I asked, "What was wrong with Annorr?"

Amisa said, "I just did not like the sound of it. I thought that it made me sound a bit belligerent."

Will said, “David, there is something bothering you. Are you still upset at Hix’s departure?”

I said, “Yes, what Hix wrote in her letter makes sense. It’s just that I don’t seem to be able to accept it.”

The rest of the gang chimed in with various catch phrases - “She’s put the cat among the pigeons.” “She’s opened a can of worms.” “She’s upset the apple cart.” "She’s opened Pandora's box."

Will said, “OK lads, we get the message.”

I said, “She combines her Catholic Catechism Lesson Six with her quote from the bible to make everything sound so simple and easy.”

Will said, “She accepted that it made it all simple, but I don’t think she was expecting it to be easy. In fact, she left here believing that undoing her belief system was going to be a long and arduous task.”

Darukin said, “David, a word of caution, Hix uses what we call mad-house logic. It’s a gross over-simplification technique that ignores what most people call ‘common sense’. It usually drives ‘ordinary’ people crazy because it ignores all the ingrained rules and regulations that are accepted as normal. Mind you, common sense is a highly overestimated gauge of what is true or false."

Will said, "It is used to hold the status quo and to tell us "that can't be done", or "that won't work." And what is common sense to you is not necessarily common sense to me.”

Charlie asked, “But is it really what Hix said that’s bothering you David?”

I wasn't sure that I wanted to get into the real reason, but since I’d learned to trust these people I decided to be more open with them. I said,

“Hix is only part of the problem. When I gave up my career and started down this awakening path I had expectations of becoming a powerful creator who was completely free. At first I was getting lots of interesting experiences and I have shared most of them with you. Recently these have dried up and now I find myself thinking about the past and questioning the decisions I have made. I’m wondering was my previous existence a complete waste of time. I’m even speculating about going back.”

Charlie said, “Going back to what, your wonderful career as a world-famous journalist. There’s no need to be shocked, David, we all know your little secret. Don't worry, though, we won’t tell anyone and even if we did, who’d believe a bunch of crazies like ourselves. There’s no going back. You can’t go home, they all think you are dead.”

Amisa said, “Of course he can go Home.”

Charlie said, “You made a great decision to leave it all behind you, David. You do not really want to undo that decision, but you still need to undo your attachment to your previous life. You’re holding onto an awful lot of stuff that you need to let go. The Shamans of Ancient Mexico believed that the only way to do this was through ‘recapitulation’, a method of recovering energy from stagnant thoughts, complexes, situations and relationships"
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I asked, “Is this like examining one’s conscience?”

Charlie said, “Yes, recapitulation is like examining one’s conscience in so far as we keep looking at the past, but its purpose is totally different. Recapitulation consists of a systematic scrutiny of one’s life, segment by segment. This examination is made, not in the light of criticism or finding fault, but in an effort to understand one’s life, and to change its course. Once we have viewed our lives in the detached manner that the recapitulation requires, there’s no way of going back to the same life.”

I asked, “Would this be necessary if we lived totally in the present?”

Charlie said, “The whole idea is to get us to live totally in the present, but for the most part we are carrying an awful lot of baggage. The world of everyday life is not real, or out there, as we believe it is. It is only a description. This description has been pounded into us since the moment of our birth.

"Everyone who comes into contact with a child is a teacher who incessantly describes the world, until the moment the child is capable of perceiving the world as it is described. We have no memory of this moment, simply because none of us would possibly have had any point of reference to compare it to anything else. From that moment on, however, we are caught. We know the description of the world, and we are capable of making all the proper perceptual interpretations, which, by confirming to that description, validate it.”

Will said, “We’re ploughing old ground here, we've covered this before. In child psychology, the period from one month to ten months is when most of this programming is done, when we form a ‘dual unity’ with our mothers. When the actual moment of perceiving the description occurs is uncertain. There is more certainty about when we lock into it. Some schools of thought say that it has happened by the time we are three, others say five, and still others say seven."

Charlie said, “Whatever! The reality of our day-to-day life consists of an endless flow of perceptual interpretations. This reality is shared. These perceptions are rarely, if ever, open to question. And that there may be other interpretations could not be taken seriously. We have to learn a new description in a total sense, for the purpose of pitting it against the old one, and in that way break the dogmatic certainty, which we all share.”

I said, “I’m getting the sense that to achieve this we have to engage in struggle, strife, battle, or even all out war”
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Charlie said, “The Shamans of Ancient Mexico believed that things are black or white, good or evil, right or wrong. And the only way to convert from black to white, evil to good, or wrong to right is through removing the black-evil-wrong by severe, cruel methods that, most of time, include killing it."

Amisa said, “And kill the host as well. It does not have to be that way. To ‘relinquish’ our description all we have to do is let go of the past.”

Darukin said, “We all carry much emotional memory and we need to metabolise it. We need to let the past go through the process of being sorted, of keeping what we regard as useful and dumping what is not.”

Will said, “Whatever we call it, recapitulation, relinquishing, or metabolising, the undoing of our present state of mind is a process that takes time and effort. How much time and effort it takes depends on many factors.”

Charlie said, "We have to adopt the mood of a warrior – become an impeccable hunter that hunts power. If we succeed in our hunting we can be called 'a man of knowledge'. The hardest thing in the world is to assume the mood of a warrior, It is of no use to be sad and complain and feel justified in doing so, believing that someone is always doing something to us. Nobody is doing anything to anybody, much less to a warrior.

Will said, "You cannot hunt something you already have. But, before you attack me again, you can hunt what is keeping you out of your natural power."

Charlie said, "Self-pity doesn't jibe with power. The mood of a warrior calls for control over himself and at the same time it calls for abandoning himself. A warrior calculates everything. That’s control. But once his calculations are over, he acts. He lets go. That’s abandon. For a warrior there is nothing offensive about the acts of his fellow men.

"We need the mood of a warrior to cut through all the guff. As warriors, we proceed strategically for we know that the worst thing we can do is to confront human beings bluntly..."

I said, "I guess I have been going about this the wrong way. My tendency has been to be blunt and direct, and not to beat around the bush.

Will said, "No, you have been accused of being blunt, but for the most part you have been gentle, maybe a bit direct in trying to get your message across.

Darukin said, "David, being blunt and direct implies that you know what's best for someone else. It also means that you have judged the other person or their behaviour. And in some cases, you'll be accused of interfering."

Charlie continued, "Fright never injures anyone. What injures the spirit is having someone always on our backs, beating us, telling us what to do and what not to do."

Will said, "Unfortunately, this someone is not always external to us, we have internalised it as the 'superego' or as our conscience."

Clivid had been sitting through all of this without any comment. Now I could see that he was getting very agitated. He stood up and puffed out his chest like he was getting ready to preach.

Clivid said, "We examine our conscience on a daily basis to prepare us for the particular judgment. This judgment happens to all of us immediately after we die..."

Will interrupted, "Here comes the Big Book sermon!"

Clivid continued, "You will stand in front of the Throne of God and God will judge you from what has been written in the book of your lives. Everything is in the book. Everything you have thought, said or done is in there. Everything that you should have thought, said or done is in there. Everything that you omitted to think, say or do is in there.

"And listening to all the blasphemy, sacrilege and heresy that you have been mouthing, you will all rot in the fires of hell forever..."

Amisa interrupted, "Clivid, Clivid, God has only one judgment of us all."

Clivid asked in a very sarcastic tone, "Pray tell, witch, what is that?"

Amisa said, "You are my beloved Son in whom I am well pleased."

Clivid plonked down on his chair and threw his eyes up to heaven in desperation.

Charlie said, "The warrior’s way is to worry and think before we make any decision, but once we make it, be on our way, free from worry or thoughts. There will be a million other decisions still awaiting us. War does not mean acts of individual or collective stupidity or wanton violence. It means the total struggle against that part of ourselves that deprives us of our power."

Amisa said, "I don't like the word warrior. It means a brave or experienced soldier or fighter. I get the sense of how you use it, Charlie, but I wish we could use some other expression."

Charlie said, "Inside all of us there is a gigantic, dark lake of silent knowledge which we can access. It is extremely old, at ease, indifferent, heavy, dark, and connected to everything else. It does not care because it is equal to everything. It enjoys things with no expectation."

Amisa said, "Sorry for interrupting you again. It is seen as dark only from the ego's perspective. In fact, it is only light."

Charlie said, "That's alright. The separate part, ego or foreign installation, is light, new, fluffy, agitated, nervous, and fast. It cares about itself because it is insecure and does not enjoy anything, simply because it lacks the capacity to connect itself to anything. It is alone, on the surface, and vulnerable.

"Ego finds itself so hopelessly removed from the source of everything that all it can do is express its despair in violent and cynical acts of self-destruction. Our lack of connection to our silent source makes us feel that we have no hope of peace, of satisfaction, or of attainment."

I asked, "Is this dark lake you describe our subconscious?"

Clivid said, "God is everywhere!"

Amisa said, "Clivid, that's true, but don't you start repeating that."

Charlie said, "Yes Clivid, it could be equated with God. Using the term God, however, usually gets us mired in the quagmire of religion. We sometimes refer to it as 'the Nagual', a simpler term might be 'Universal Mind' or mind that is everywhere.

Will asked, “David, is this conversation helping you discover what’s really bothering you?”

I said, “To some extent. It has helped me clarify what my real problem is. As I see it, my great experiences are my interpretations of me dipping into the universal mind and my day to day issues are my ego refusing to let go."

Charlie said, "You got it!"

I said, "More specifically, every night before I go to bed I do a meditation on a mantra...”

Clivid interrupted, “What’s a mantra?”

Darukin answered, “It’s like a prayer or an affirmation, it’s something you keep repeating to yourself over and over to calm your mind. As you repeat it you try to say it quieter and quieter. It’s like turning down the volume control on a radio.”

I continued, “When I’m finished I’m usually very calm and relaxed. Then when I get into bed I keep repeating it as I watch the screen and fall asleep. When I wake up in the morning I feel very dense and no matter how hard I try to remember the mantra, I can’t. It’s like Will says, there seems to be a completely different personality in charge.”

Amisa said, “That’s funny, when I was doing A Course in Miracles, I had a similar experience with one of the lessons. The lesson I had to remember was “I will not value what is valueless”. Before I left for work I could remember it no bother. As I drove away from the house I could not remember it and no matter what I did during the day I still could not remember it. As I drove back into the house that evening it popped back into my head.”

Will said, "David, can you give us an example."

I said, "I'd prefer not to get into the details of these waking experiences, but I'll give you one example. Recently, I woke up and got out of bed without turning on the lights. My room looked different. I went to the door and could not find the handle to open it. I was probing with my hands all around where the door should be. Then I realised that it was a bare wall I was up against and that the door was off to my left in the adjacent wall."

Will said, "Maybe you were reliving a past life memory."

Darukin said, "If we accept Charlie's idea of a universal mind that contains everything, everywhere for all time, then past lives do not make any sense."

Will said, "Ok, David's experience was taken from this universal mind rather than his own personal memories."

Amisa said, "We've talked a lot about ego and it's personalities. Let's try and put it in a broader perspective. Charlie's 'Man of Knowledge' has access to the universal mind. I define this access as spirit. Ego is the part of us that believes that it is separated and has no access to spirit. Ego is both the prison that we lock ourselves into and the prison officer that does not allow us to escape. Mind is the decision maker that chooses between staying in ego's hell or reaching for spirit. This choice allows us to become 'knower' as opposed to being a figment of an illusion's imagination."

I asked, "Are you telling me that all my experiences are just a figment of my imagination?"

Amisa answered, "No! Your experiences are real enough, they come from either spirit or ego. They are open to interpretation by the ego. And, basically, all we have been talking about is your interpretation of your experiences, not the experiences themselves."

Clivid asked, "And where does the body fit into all of this?"

Amisa answered, "The body is a wholly neutral thing - to be gently laid aside when its usefulness is done."

Clivid said, "You're all delusional dreamers!"

Amisa said, "Ego learns, dreams are ego temper tantrums, so we can learn from dreams."

Will said, "We are running out of time, again."

I said, "Before you go, I'd like to say thank you. My views on all of this are becoming much clearer. Thank you!"