Here in Heaven
Matthew 18:3 contains the biblical verse "unless you become as little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven." This verse emphasises the importance of humility, simplicity, and faith, qualities often associated with children, as essential for entering God's kingdom.
A.H. Almaas taught that: “At birth, the infant lives as Being, in a state of undifferentiation that is not linked to the body. A process then starts, of consciousness gradually cathecting the body and physical reality. This embodiment of Being is a process of personalisation, of Being finally emerging as a person, a Human Being.” I refer to ‘the infant living as Being’ as heaven, and it is the state that Matthew is referring to.
At the end of the process of cathecting the body, the ego is fully developed, and the child is now fully of this world. Remember, ‘this world’ is portrayed as an illusion—a realm of suffering, instability, and fleeting attachments. It is governed by ego, separation, and fear, where love is conditional and loss is inevitable.
In my sixteenth year, on the third Sunday of June, the gospel was Matthew 6:28-29, which speaks about trusting in divine provision:
"Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin: and yet I say unto you, that even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these."
This is a beautiful reminder of simplicity, faith, and the effortless beauty of nature—a nature that we are part of. It is a profound reminder to trust, let go, and recognise the beauty of simply being.
I can’t remember what the sermon was about except that it had nothing to do with considering the lilies. I tried engaging various persons in conversation about it, but everyone was too busy or did not want to accept such an alien concept in a farming community. Little did I know that this would be the beginning of what I would later refer to as “the wilderness years”.
The irony is that forty days earlier, I’d had an ‘ultra-white’ experience. I felt a sense of purity, clarity, or transcendence coupled with a feeling of lightness, freedom, and a connection to something divine. At the time, I thought that I had made it into Heaven.
Growing up in a Catholic community, it was constantly drummed into us that the consequence of not obeying the rules was eternal damnation in hell. And, if we were good and behaved rightly, we had a good chance of going to Heaven. I was a great fan of Jesus, especially the miracle-working part and, of course, the walking on water.
When adults asked me what I wanted to be growing up, I would reply, ‘A Miracle Worker’. After the first few reactions, I gave up that response and answered with something more conventional. Eventually, I decided that I wouldn’t be able to make a living from following in the footsteps of Jesus. Sometime between the ages of eight and twelve, I convinced myself that I would be able to make it into Heaven before I died.
Later in life, after thirty years of preparing for and ‘making a living’, it was time to become a miracle worker. Many years of non-conventional healing courses ended with ACIM and A.H. Almaas’s A Pearl Beyond Price.
And now, thirty years later, apart from the odd lapse into egoland, I am here in Heaven. I’ll say it again:
“Here In Heaven”
May you find peace in the unfolding of the present moment.
Appendix I - The Absence of the Ego is Heaven
Yes, within the framework of A Course in Miracles (ACIM), the absence of the ego can absolutely be called Heaven.
Here's why:
The Ego is the Illusion of Separation: In ACIM, the ego is defined as the belief in separation from God. It is the thought system that constructed the idea of individuality, sin, guilt, fear, and the physical world as a reality apart from God's perfect Oneness.
Heaven is Perfect Oneness with God: Heaven, according to ACIM, is not a physical place you go to after death. It is a state of perfect Oneness, complete unity, absolute peace, joy, and limitless love, where there is no separation, no lack, and no fear. It is the awareness of our true Self as eternally united with God.
The Ego is the "Block to the Awareness of Love's Presence": The ego is the only thing that obscures our awareness of Heaven. It acts as a veil, a dream, or a belief system that convinced us we are separate from God and from each other.
Absence of the Ego = Awareness of Heaven: Therefore, when the ego's thought system is undone, seen through, and released (which is the goal of ACIM through forgiveness), the belief in separation vanishes. With the belief in separation gone, what remains is the undisturbed awareness of our true Self as eternally united with God in Heaven. The "absence of ego" is not a void, but the presence of perfect Love and Oneness.
ACIM often states that Heaven is not something to be achieved or reached, but rather a state that is always present and needs only to be remembered or recognized by letting go of the ego's illusions.
So, to summarize: The ego is the dream of separation. Heaven is the reality of Oneness. When the dream of separation (the ego) is gone, the reality of Oneness (Heaven) is all that is left and is fully experienced.
Appendix II - Matthew's "look at the lilies" == ACIM's "I need do nothing"
Matthew's "look at the lilies" and ACIM's "I need do nothing" are profoundly connected, sharing a core message of trust, release from anxiety, and reliance on a higher power.
Core Message of "Look at the lilies":
Release from Anxious Thought/Worry: The central theme is to let go of anxiety and worry about future needs (food, clothing, material possessions).
Trust in Divine Provision: It encourages absolute trust that a benevolent God/Father knows and will provide for all your needs, just as He effortlessly cares for nature.
Focus on the Spiritual First: The instruction to "seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness" implies that when you align your focus and priorities with the spiritual, the material needs will be effortlessly met as a side effect.
Surrender of Personal Striving (for worldly gain): The lilies "toil not, neither do they spin," yet they are arrayed more gloriously than Solomon. This points to a natural, effortless unfolding when aligned with divine will instead of frantic, ego-driven striving.
ACIM's "I need do nothing":
Release from Egoic Doing/Striving: This is the direct parallel. The "nothing" refers to the ego's attempts to "make" salvation, peace, or happiness through complex plans, manipulative actions, or strenuous personal effort. It's about letting go of the belief that you must solve the separation problem through your own means.
Trust in Divine Plan/Holy Spirit's Guidance: Just as Matthew calls for trust in the Father's provision, ACIM calls for trust in the Holy Spirit's plan for Atonement. The Holy Spirit (or Jesus) knows the way back to peace and will guide us perfectly if we surrender our own plans.
Focus on the Mind/Perception: ACIM's "doing" is internal—the "doing" of the mind. It's about forgiveness, changing perception, and letting go of grievances, which is the true work. When the mind is aligned, external circumstances become reflections of that inner peace.
Salvation is Already Accomplished: The "nothing" you need to "do" is because salvation is already complete in God's reality. You are already whole and loved. The "work" is simply to remove the blocks to the awareness of love's presence.
The Strong Connection:
Both teachings point to a profound paradigm shift from ego-driven, anxious striving to a state of trusting receptivity and inner alignment.
Effortless Being: Both suggest that true well-being and fulfilment arise not from desperate effort, but from an effortless state of being that flows from alignment with a higher, benevolent order. The lilies simply are, and are provided for. We, in our true essence, also simply are, and are eternally complete.
The Problem is in the Mind: Matthew's "take no anxious thought" directly addresses the mental state of worry. ACIM's "I need do nothing" is fundamentally about releasing the ego's thought system of perceived lack and necessary striving. Both locate the "problem" in the mind's attachment to fear and illusion.
Spiritual Priority: "Seek ye first the kingdom of God" aligns perfectly with ACIM's emphasis on shifting our goal from worldly gain to true peace and a right mind. Everything else falls into place when the mind is straightened out (the "doing" of forgiveness).
In essence, Matthew's "look at the lilies" provides a powerful analogy for the state of effortless being and trust that ACIM's "I need do nothing" aims to cultivate in the student. They both invite us to cease our fearful, ego-driven struggle and allow the divine order to provide and orchestrate our true well-being.